Day of Rest

Happy Wednesday! It's mid-week and I am already beat. I'm not sure why exactly. I've noticed ever since I had to stop training, my sleeping patterns are different. I don't feel like I sleep nearly as deep or as soundly as I used to. I wake up in the morning feeling sluggish and pushing snooze several (yes, several) times before I finally drag myself out of bed. I distinctly remember my high school biology teacher, Mr. RInehart, telling us he knew when he was in really good shape. He said when he woke up in the morning, he was wide awake immediately. Good sleep, ready to go. Mr. Rinehart played football for the Los Angeles Rams, so I figured he had a good take on what "in shape" meant. So, when I wake up in the morning and all I want to do is go back to sleep, I worry about my health a little. When I was in my best shape while training for a half-ironman, it was a lot of work. Thing is, I don't recall being exhausted believe it or not. Sometimes mentally, but not physically. Well... maybe after 6 mos of training, but not the "not wanting to get out of bed" type of tired. I can't wait to get back into shape! I know it will be a long time before I'm in any kind of training shape again, but my goal is for the feel-comfortable-in-my own-skin type of shape. I joined the fitness center at UCSF - Mission Bay, near my work. They have two, yes TWO pools! An indoor and rooftop (yeah, outdoors) pool. I am hoping I can start to break up my work day with a visit to the gym at least a few times a week.

So, today I was just tired. I was trying all day to get myself prepared to see my friends Lisa and Seth and their new baby Laurel after work. I ended up having late work meetings and just felt mentally tired. I know, I flaked. I'm sorry Lis! Don't worry, it wasn't just work. I still love my job. I simply had one of those days that was meeting after meeting and I needed some down time tonight. I'm REALLY hoping to see the Socolows this weekend.

It's been a busy week already. Yesterday, I had the typical day at work, then went right to physical therapy and finally to my church Community Group (CG = small bible study) at 7:30 PM. It was great, but I didn't get home until 10:20 PM. I saw Susan, my PT. I hadn't seen her for a few weeks since I was not able to fit into her schedule. Susan said she thought the swelling had subsided in my knee since she had last seen me. Great! Although I haven't been doing anything to really *test* it lately. I told my CG about my knee injury and surgery. I mentioned how a few years ago I was more or less obsessed with training for races. I've recognized that maybe there was a reason my knee injury happened and interestingly enough -- needed to happen to me. Balance is important in life. The leader of our CG Katie looked up towards the ceiling and said, "God, she "get's it," she knows she needs to balance her life better. Now, heal her knee!" Well put. Katie made me smile.